容我宁静

容我宁静
某天在朋友的facebook看见的一句话
突然在想
宁静 是一种心情的修养
能够容你宁静的
只有自己

今天的我
看从前
该或不该 都做了很多
看未来
烟雾迷茫 无人能预测

目光该专注于现在
做好自己
现在之所以可爱
就是因为现在可以被把握
不是吗

我望向镜子的自己
突然
这一张脸孔
我爱上了

:)

Joke for the day

Miscommunication:
A co-worker got a pen stuck inside our printer. He started to try and remove the pen, but I told him we don't have time for that now, just put a note on the printer telling folks not to use it and then report it to the Help Desk. So he grabbed a piece of paper and scrawled on it. I left before he finished the note.

About 20 minutes later, one of my techs comes in laughing and says he was just in the lobby, saw a piece of paper on a printer and went to investigate.

Attached is what he found.. Sometimes things don't always come out the way you want them to........

---------------------------------

I'm very very stress in work now. This forwarded mail definitely brightens my day a little. Can't stop laughing at it...Haha..

Better In Time

Leona Lewis was mentioned a few times by several different people today. And I happen to listen to this song. Well well, better in time...

Travel travel travel

Just confirmed my air ticket to Siem Reap next year. Two travelling plans awaiting in the coming year. Planning for the third one though :) Yippie. This shall keep me excited for quite a while.

So from now on, I have to cut on my expenses on other area. Have to reduce on big meals and crazy shopping. Well, still worth it :)

I am so excited now!!

Searching for laptop

Searching for laptop..So far checked out Dell, considering Dell XPS M1530 or Dell Inspiron 1520...Hmm...More survey to be done...I need advice!!

Obesity

I knew I am fat all the while. But I didn't realise that I was THAT obese.

Browsing through my photos, looking at my physical changes throughout these years..I am surprised on how I ignore the fact the I am totally out of shape months ago. I have been giving all sorts of reasons to be lazy in life and took less effort to look good.

Note to myself:

• Everyone must be self-conscious on how you present yourself. Always try your best to stay in your best condition. Let it be physically or mentally.
• Never believe it when a guy tells you that he would not mind no matter how fat you are. He meant it when he said it. But the very fact is that every human being love to have beautiful things in sight. When you are an eyesore, interest and passion reduce, same goes to patience and feelings.
• Everybody can look better. Just a matter of determination and discipline.
• Self confidence, is the best make up one can wear.

Still not on target yet. Targeting another 5 kgs of weight loss :)

Start feeling old..

I was SuatAi's mentor in a motivation camp 6 years ago. Time flies. She has grown up. Grown up well indeed. Happy convo girl. My best wishes for you. Catch your dream, and I believe you will.

Start feeling old..

Cholesterol report for year 08

One more year. Give me one more year and I'll pass with flying colours :D

这星期五，我是幸福的！

因为没有目标，所以感到彷徨
因为虚度青春，所以感到空虚
因为越是深思，所以感到迷思
因为不知所措，所以越做越错

不再害怕星期五
因为迎向恐惧，所以不再害怕

Watching badminton match ended up as....

Watched the match of Lee Chong Wei vs Lin Dan the other day.

My heart does support Lee Chong Wei fully from beginning till the end of the match. Hoping to witness Malaysia's first Olympic gold medal is my intention.

But damn, isn't Lin Dan's biseps nice and sexy? Especially with him putting on a confident smile and sweating all over. I just can't take my eyes off his nicely built biseps.

Guy with nicely shaped biseps, is just a killing attraction to me.
Same goes to guy with small eyes.
If any has both, I'm going to faint!!

Good habits and bad habits

One said: 21 days of doing a same thing will make it a habit.
I have started some bad habits for more than 21 days.
And is starting some good habits few days ago.
It all comes from the heart.
How much you want it to be.
Discipline. Is the only key to any dreams...

星期五

星期五 六点钟 办公室早已很冷清

多数人急着回家陪伴家人

有些人与情人约会去了

有些人乐于清静

有目的地 或心情平静的人 是幸福的

I Have Learned...Have I?

不同的时间，阅读同一篇文章，每一次都让我有不同的感受。 这是一篇2006年7月我收在信箱的一篇文章。我依然清楚，为什么这篇文章让我在当时有所感触。2008年8月重看，感触依然深，只不过出发点完全逆转了。两年后的我，重新把它再看一遍，又会是什么样的心情呢？

朋友

算一算 我还算幸运的吧
在我无助的时候
身边至少还有些许愿意相陪的朋友

离开我生活圈子的
虽然不明白为什么
但我试着谅解
期待有一天他回来我们的圈子当中
好象从前一样 聚一聚 松一松

无怨陪在我身边的
我很是感激
学着珍惜 学着付出
学着让自己快些好起来

谢谢你们
谢谢你们让我可以在你们面前毫无顾忌地表现软弱的一面
谢谢你们在我无法独自单处的时候陪我不做些什么

我想 我还是幸运的

我想自由地飞

我想自由地飞 无忧无虑地飞
时间 过得很慢
不断告诉自己 顺其自然 一切自然会慢慢地变得不重要
可是 稳定几天 复又崩溃几天的情绪
好累 真的好累。。。

今天 一切是那么的美好
积极地工作 完成了部分堆积已久的工作
同事相约吃海鲜
多么美好的情绪
丰盛的晚餐 充满玩笑的时刻
我觉得很快乐 真的

直到一个人坐上汽车扭开引擎
泪腺也被扭开了
不知道我是怎么让自己往回家的路上开
像个疯子一样 冲呀冲 忍呀忍
直到车子转进那一条街道 什么都忍不住了

是的 就在这一条街道
那一晚 也是在这一条街道
我感到我们之间存在了很严重的问题
我决定放下那些无谓的自尊
我想为这一段感情努力加温
我不要再因为生气你没联络我而不联络你
那一晚 和今天一样 我也是把车停在这一条路旁
打电话告诉你我的不安 我缺乏安全感
我在乎 我们多沟通好吗？
当时你说我想多了
你说我们很好啊
你还说你很骄傲地对别人说我们的关系不需要无时无刻腻在一起呢
其实 你早已经在让自己习惯心里没有我的日子了吧
你温习多久了呢？
我明白没所谓的公平不公平
可是这一个鬼地方
到处充满着让我情绪崩溃的回忆
你在一个没有我的回忆的国度过着你的新生活
还说我应该做的是过得比你好
废话

让自己在路旁放声痛哭了好久好久
催眠也好 麻醉也好
重复喊着 我讨厌你 我讨厌你 我不爱你了
好想骂你一顿 如果骂你能把自己也骂醒
拿起电话 却在倒数时差
八 七 六 五
凌晨五点半 还在睡吧
这一刻 我还在算时差
清醒吧！

開始懂了

開始懂了 - 孫燕姿
曲︰李偲菘 詞︰姚若龍 編︰KENN C

我竟然沒有調頭　最殘忍那一刻
靜靜看你走　一點都不像我
原來人會變得溫柔　是透澈的懂了
愛情是流動的　不由人的
何必激動著要理由

相信你只是怕傷害我
不是騙我　
很愛過誰會捨得
把我的夢搖醒了　
宣布幸福不會來了

用心酸微笑去原諒了
也翻越了　
有昨天還是好的
但明天是自己的　
開始懂了 快樂是選擇

First Piano Lesson...

Shall indulge myself in some happier emotions...

So here it is...My first piano lesson....

Feel as though I'm a kid again...Because the teacher is using all those colourful theory books..with cartoon characters all over the book. And as a mother herself, plus all the students she is having, I believe she has been dealing with too many small kids. The way she talks to me, not the attitude but more to the tone, I feel as if I am being treated as a kid as well. Everytime after I finish a simple line, she would say: Good, very gooooood....Haha...

Find it very difficult to look at notes. This is where everybody finds it hard to start with.

Looking forward towards the day I can play elegantly on the piano :)

Je ne sais pas

Will it be OK? Je ne sais pas
Will him be OK? Je ne sais pas
Will I be OK? Je ne sais pas

Je ne sais pas
Je ne sais pas
Je ne sais pas
Je ne sais pas
Je ne sais pas
.........

The only thing I know is that I must learn to love in the correct way.
Love.....

Lost

Fat analysis showed that in six weeks time, I have gained 3.3kg of muscle, and lost 7 kg of fat, which results in total of 3.7kg of weight lost.

Everybody around me is complementing on my significant weight lost and better dressing taste.

I can't feel any satisfaction.
What I lost, is not only those pounds.
I have lost my rationality, my dignity, my pride....

伤

有些伤
你以为时间会让它慢慢复原
没想到
它会越来越清晰。。

说到底
我没有真正伤害到任何人
伤的
只是我自己
不是吗？

就这样。。。

必须让自己静下来。。
深呼吸。。吸气。。呼气。。
嗯，就这样。。。

有些痛，终会过去，勇敢跨出关键的一步，未来会更好，提示不是老早就给你了吗？
嗯，就这样。。。

Je suis désolé...

Je suis désolé...
再多的道歉也没有用，如果道歉只是说说而已。。
没有自律的人，不值得被原谅。。
明知故犯。。是不懂得体谅他人的行为之一。。
非要落到这种地步才肯认清事实吗？
纠缠下去，能得到一些什么呢？
快乐不是别人夺走的，快乐是自己放弃的。
一大堆的大道理，别人说的也好，自己已经懂的也好。。
小姐，花一些时间想清楚吧！！